Already
the house was abuzz with activity and excitement. People had come from everywhere to wish us a
safe journey and a happy landing. I
didn’t know I had so many friends and relatives, many of them who I had never
seen before.
They
came from as far away as Armagh, Omagh, Dungannon and Ballylunnen and had names
like Coyle, Coyne, Devlin and Cohen, Moody and Macklin and at least one Quin,
spelled with a single ‘n’ – from Belfast, who was, God help him, said my
father, A Protestant! His name was
pronounced with the ‘i’ and not with the ‘ee’ that was usual in our
neighbourhood.
Some
people who had purchased bits of furniture from us arrived with pony-and-traps
to take it away. Others came on
bicycles. It was a brilliant morning
with not a cloud in sight.
My
parents were still packing, moving items from one container to another. Questions demanded answers but there was no
one to supply them. This was the most
important and traumatic occasion of their lives to date. The indecisiveness of the past three months
was now no more. They had reached their
Rubicon. Worries about the predictions
of doom and the future’s uncertainties were masked by the stress of the
present, by the rising tide of excitement, the arrival of close relatives and
fast friends, all of which helped to hold at bay, if only for a few more
moments, any least expressions of strong emotions that accompany last
farewells.
I
too was caught up in the excitement. My
enthusiasm though was undiluted with any regret for the past or fear for the
future. I felt strangely calm and
objective. I was looking down,
uninvolved and unmoved, watching people come and go, others lingering at the
roadside, and inside the house Sally and Mary Ann fluttering about like
butterflies in their new dresses with Maggie toddling after them and getting in
their way. My father was in a nice clean white shirt and
his good trousers, incongruously held up by worn archaic gallowses and trying
to shave with the aid of a little cracked mirror on the wall.
My
mother was surrounded by her sisters and aunts and a few close friends, fussing
with her purse, laughing and crying both at the same time, keeping busy – doing
anything to avoid being alone with her thoughts, striving valiantly to hold
back the moment of the final farewell.